Motherhood

On March 26, 2016 we welcomed Enzo Michael into the world! If you follow me on Instagram you likely saw my announcement followed by tons and tons of baby picture posts. I thought a lot about blogging during the past 4 months but I never posted. I really wanted to spend my maternity leave focused on Enzo and enjoying that time together. I’m really happy I did and that I did not take a moment of that time for granted. I also wanted to spend some time thinking about whether or not I wanted to keep blogging, and how or if Enzo fit into that. Ultimately, I just needed to take some time to be a new mom and see where it would lead me.

The past 4 months have been nothing short of extraordinary. Michael and I are blessed with an incredibly sweet, loving boy who likes to sleep and dislikes crying. He fills our home with laughter, smiles, and more love and joy than I ever imagined. He’s certainly made my world feel complete. It hasn’t all been sunshine and roses however, we have had our challenges. Our biggest challenge was with breastfeeding and after a lot of thought I want to post about our experience but more on that another day. I’m also going to share our birth story. I feel it’s important to share those stories because neither experience was one I had ever really anticipated or heard other moms experiencing. I have since learned that both aren’t all that uncommon, just maybe not discussed as much.  Michael and I have learned a lot as new parents through trial and error, reading (so much reading), advice from friends and family, and our intuition. Enzo has experienced quite a lot in his short 4 months with us. We are trying so hard to take advantage of the portable stage. He’s been to the beach a few times, to many parties and BBQ’s, to NY to visit my family, restaurants, the movies, to Maine and Rhode Island, Boston, the Boston Marathon, and so much more. We’ve had a blast and continue to have a blast as a family of 3.

 

I’m not going to post much about Enzo here. You won’t see monthly posts about him and I won’t be sharing his measurements or milestones. You will probably catch glimpses of him as he fits into our family life, and as I share experiences about stroller running.  I do post baby pictures on Instagram and share some of our day to day life there so be sure to follow me if that’s of interest. LiveRunLoveYoga has always been about my experiences living a healthy life and that’s what it will continue to be.

I’ve found motherhood to be an incredibly rewarding and exciting experience. It took some time to adjust at first but now we’re in our groove and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Postpartum can be a really challenging time. As soon as I gave birth I was eager to loose the baby weight. I gained exactly 40 pounds from the day I conceived to the day I delivered. Much of that was water and the baby. About a week after birth I was down about 20 pounds with 20 pounds left to loose. I didn’t focus on losing baby weight until I was cleared for exercise and I happily ate all the comfort food that was brought and prepared for us because I was exhausted and trying to keep a tiny human alive. At about 4 weeks postpartum I started to clean up my diet and was counting the days until I could run again. I started running and doing circuit workouts at exactly 6 weeks postpartum. I’ve lost another 10 pounds since I started exercising and have 12 pounds to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight and 18 pounds to my goal weight. I’m almost back in all my normal clothes but some of skirts and pants are still a bit too tight for my liking. I’ve found it MUCH harder to accept my new body than I thought. My thighs now rub together (hello chaffing), and I have a few stretch marks to remind me that my body grew a human. I’m currently experiencing postpartum hair-loss and as many moms can tell you that’s not fun. It’s also summer in New England and that doesn’t make it any easier. I bought myself a tankini I really like and feel confident in but I have been eyeing my bikini. I told myself that I will wear my bikini to the beach before summer is over because I think it will be a good lesson for me in self-acceptance. Breastfeeding didn’t work for us so I haven’t had the ability to burn extra calories from that. I’m losing weight the good old fashioned way…diet and exercise.

40 Weeks Pregnant

One of my favorite things I’ve been doing is stroller running. It’s HARD, so HARD but I love being out there doing something I love with my little boy. He sits in his carseat attached to the BOB and chit chats and smiles at me the whole time. He thinks its hysterical when I get out of breath running uphill and always gives me a good chuckle (thanks for the support Enzo). I’ve found there isn’t a lot out there in terms of postpartum running, and even more so stroller running so I really want to share what our experience has been. What works for me, what doesn’t. I’ve also become a circuit lover and want to share some of my favorite workouts.

I’m back at work now days and I like to think that we’re doing our best and our best is pretty good. I’m learning that things don’t need to be done perfectly to be done. Perfection is impossible when you are doing a million things in one day. My house isn’t the cleanest, my workouts aren’t always the best,  and usually one of us is exhausted but we always sit down for a healthy dinner together, have lots of smiles, enjoy time as a family, and Michael and I somehow manage to spend a little time together. We probably have a little too much ice cream than I really need but hey, we’ve earned it and it’s summer. Parenthood isn’t easy but it’s so worth it!

What have you been up to since March?

Pregnancy Reflections

I’m 38 weeks pregnant today. It seems crazy to me that we are this far along and will have a baby in our arms in 2 weeks (or so) time. I feel like I can finally take a step back and relax a bit. We did it, we did this pregnancy thing.

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If you know Michael and I personally then you know that in our world change brings more change- you might recall that we started repainting our home and updated our half-bath while planning our wedding and both took new jobs just months before our big day. Finding out we had a little one on the way was enough to make us decide to tackle a nursery renovation, a complete bathroom remodel and renovation, a new job for Michael, and about a million other little things like buying a car, getting life insurance, finishing our wedding album, and all the things necessary to prepare for a baby like finding a pediatrician, shopping for gear, finding a nanny, and more. Given all the changes happening to my body, to my home, and life I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t completely and utterly stressful and exhausting at times. It was but I feel like we totally conquered our over ambitious pregnancy to-do list and our home and lives are ready for the transition from two to three. I feel like our lives are in a calm and peaceful place with plenty of room for the baby and that’s exactly how I wanted to feel at this point.

I love our new bathroom and the way the nursery came out. It’s exactly what I wanted and every time I look into the rooms my mind flashes forward to scenes of our new life as a family of 3…bath time filled with laughter, bedtime stories in the nursery, toys scattered about as we play.

Michael and I also managed to still have our weekly date nights, nights out with friends, and time with family. We celebrated our first anniversary in style, danced it up at my cousin’s wedding and spent time with good friends over dinners. We escaped to Nantucket for a quiet babymoon and savored every moment together.

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We celebrated Baby Rosa with ALL our friends and family- one shower in Massachusetts and one in New York.

I KNOW we wouldn’t be at this point in our pregnancy, ready for Baby R, without all our friends and family. Michael’s parents were over helping anyway they could, my dad would drive from NY on Friday night and work his butt off for two days before hopping in the car and heading home Sunday night, our friends took time away from their families to help us demo or hang sheet rock.  Pregnancy has truly been a time in our life where we feel completely and utterly loved and supported by those around us. I personally think we are pretty lucky when it comes to friends and family.

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The last month of pregnancy has been as hard as everyone said it would be and harder than I could ever imagine. My body does not feel like it’s mine at all. It’s a challenge to put on shoes, roll over, and I pretty much hate all types of pants. Cleaning the house, grocery shopping, and the day to day of daily life are a challenge at times. Never in my life have I longed for the couch and naps like I have in these final few weeks although truth be told I really haven’t rested enough. I feel like I totally underestimated what it would feel like to be 9 months pregnant and at the same time I’m incredibly grateful that my pregnancy as a whole was so easy. Everyone told me time would slow down this month, they weren’t kidding. It feels like Baby R will never be here. My excitement builds and builds with each passing day and I just want to know if it’s a boy or a girl! I’ve started thinking more and more about labor and delivery and only hope it’s as easy as this pregnancy has been.

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With 2 weeks to go Michael and I are looking forward to some quiet time and trying to contain our excitement. We’re spending time in the kitchen cooking, heading out to our favorite restaurants, and enjoying the remaining time we have just the two of us. It doesn’t even seem real that next time I’m popping in here I’ll be talking about life as a mom and a family of 3. These last 9 months have been quite an adventure filled with so much happiness and I can’t wait to experience the next part of our journey.

What’s your guess? Is Baby R a Boy or Girl?