Last week was nothing short of a nightmare. I kept hoping I’d wake up from my restless night’s sleep to see it was all just a bad dream. It wasn’t. In fact, the nightmare became worse on Friday when our entire city shut down. Thankfully Michael was just about to leave to head to work downtown when they shut the city down so we both spent the day at home in the suburbs. The ‘burbs felt pretty good on Friday. I was able to shut off the tv and head out into the warm sunshine for some therapy…5 beautiful miles. I was able to head to the grocery store and feel normal for a few minutes too. But honestly, it felt like we were on lockdown too…it’s hard to ignore that scary feeling in your stomach. Around 5:30 we headed out to meet a friend for a cocktail and Chinese food in another attempt to feel normal. It felt good to be out, see other people around and eat dinner but our faces said it all. We were sad, scared for our city and anxious. By the time we had wrapped up our early bird dinner we were paying the bill when we heard the news. We quickly left dinner and headed home and promptly glued ourselves to the tv again.
I thought the end would make me feel better, that I’d feel relieved and I’d finally get a good night’s sleep. But, none of those things happened. And even today I still feel sad and heart-broken. I think our city has a lot of heart ache and grief to work through but also see tremendous pride and resiliency in our city. I’ve seen our city come together in incredible ways this week and I know it won’t stop anytime soon. That makes me feel good.
As we head into this new week and let time pass I know we will have our good days and our bad. I personally am looking forward to a week of work, running in the early morning and teaching my yoga classes. Friday I fly to DC for the Nike Women’s Marathon Half with my team and look forward to giving them the best Team In Training experience possible. Sure, I’m anxious and nervous. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t. But running belongs to the runners and spectators, just like they showed us yesterday at the London Marathon. Runners support each other, and lift each other up. The community showed that in a big way last week and I know I’ll see it again at Nike. I’m hoping to find comfort and peace with in that. I hope that runners continue to support each other and stand strong together…I hope that is our new normal.
I hope that as we return to our routines, that as the days and months pass we will continue to stand strong as a running community, as a city and as people. I hope the acts of kindness will continue on. I hope that we continue to support each other and lift each other up. I hope that we are there to help the victims. I hope we are there to fill our streets of Boston with love. I hope the runners continue to fill our streets for community runs and training runs. I hope the spectators and runners will come out to make not only Boston 2014 the best yet, but every 5k, 10k and half until then just as good. I hope the new normal is a world of kindness like I saw in the past week.