This blog post has been floating around in my head for days…the words just can’t seem to flow on out like they normally do…thus the lack of posting in the last few days, oh and I’ve been busy. But I’m ready to take a stab at this one so hang with me here...
I’ve been thinking a lot about living outside your comfort zone, pushing the limits and venturing into uncharted territory. I guess I’ve been kind of doing that for the last year or so. Since this time last year I ran Boston Marathon, became an NASM certified personal trainer, moved out of the only home I’ve ever known in Boston, moved in with Michael (love that decision), got a new job…ok changed careers in a big way, took yoga teacher training, became a certified yoga instructor and put this little old blog out there in more ways than I can count. That feeling of pushing your limits, feeling uncomfortable, nervous, anxious even because everything is so new and you have no idea what comes next? Yeah, that’s pretty much how I feel everyday…except those glorious days where I get to be home relaxing.
So when I started thinking about 2013 and what I’d like to accomplish all I could really think about was how tired I was and how I was ready for some normalcy. I had visions of movie days, comfort food, sleeping in and downtime dancing through my head. So I decided to leave 2013 open to fate. I’d see where life would take me…a year of no goals if you will. The problem is, that’s not really me. I have one speed…GO and when you GO that fast you kind of need to have directions.
Everyone around me was setting goals, looking to the future and planning out their year…running races, marathons, half marathons, certifications and everything else. Part of me was ready to dive in, sign up for a fall marathon and start training. That I could do and I’ve had my eye on the Marine Corp Marathon for years now. But then Michael reminded me of the shiny new yoga certification I worked so hard for and the Athleta Sponsored Athlete title I was so excited about and all the other opportunities coming my way. And then he said, “Don’t you think you should focus on building your yoga business and you name?”
And there it was. The truth. Running a marathon is
easy (I take that back, they are never easy) comfortable. I’ve done it before, and I could do it again. This time, I could probably do it better. But the truth is, I WANT to build my business as a yoga instructor and I’d like to build this blog. And there certainly is not enough time in the day to do it all. There was a choice…run another marathon or focus on yoga and this little business?
So for the last few weeks I’ve been tossing this around. Some days I was telling myself, I can’t keep chasing my dreams or that I deserve a break…a year or normal if you will. Other days I was giving myself the pep talk I really needed. Then the other day I was out running, rolling these ideas around again and it hit me, like it always does on a good run in the pitch black at 5:30am on a cold winter morning. If chasing down your hopes and dreams was easy and comfortable everyone would do it but it’s not and that’s part of the journey and the challenge.
If I had given up on my crazy idea to leave Chemistry I’d never have the job I love now, if I’d skipped out on yoga teacher training because it made me nervous and uncomfortable I would have never learned that cranial facial massage is incredible and that 15 complete strangers can show each other more love than I ever thought possible. I’ve learned too many times to stick with it and make your dreams a reality.
So what’s up for 2013…I’m not completely sure yet but I’m going to keep chasing down my dream of being a yoga instructor and building this little business of mine. Lucky for me, it starts on Wednesday with my very own yoga class that I get to teach each and every week. And if you think I’m not going outside my comfort zone with that, think again…I’ve been nervous for weeks! This year I want to teach a yoga workshop, be the best sponsored athlete I can be, maybe become a certified running coach and start combining my love of running with my love of yoga in a big way and maybe just maybe PR the half marathon distance. I don’t think 2013 has another marathon in store for me, there probably isn’t enough time for that and I know I can run a marathon. Building a successful yoga business and taking my dreams to the next level, that’s pushing my limits and exactly where my time and energy needs to be spent. I’m curious to see what life has in store for me…lately it’s just too unpredictable in the best ways possible. I only hope 2013 is filled with as much love, adventure and success as 2012.