Hi Friends! It feels like forever since I last posted. And let’s face it, my posting is definitely a bit more infrequent these days. My apologies, it’s just that life has been crazy busy lately. I ran the dishwasher on Tuesday night and neither Michael nor I had the 5 minutes to empty the thing until Friday night. I spent most of the weekend recovering, which in reality means catching up on a lot of sleep and having a few lazy mornings. Keeping balance has proved to be a challenge lately. I often feel like I’m at one extreme or another. Running from one thing to the next with barely a moment to catch my breath or staring at the TV in a complete state of exhaustion. The challenges of a new job, the final weeks of teacher training, the holidays and more are throwing me off-balance.
I LOVE my new job. It’s equal parts challenging, fun, and rewarding and definitely fast paced. As my boss put it, “this job can suck you in”. Luckily, much to my liking, she does her absolutely best to help us all keep the balance. But despite how hard she tries a certain amount of that balance falls on my shoulders as well. When I first started a few of the girls in the office were talking about having their email on their cell phones. Some had it, others didn’t and my boss made it quite clear to me she did not have her email pushing through to her phone and I definitely did not need to do this. The
recovering Type A in me felt that I absolutely wanted and needed my email connected to my iPhone. Well after weeks of work related dreams, thanks to emails coming in at 10 at night and a momentary feeling of panic on Thanksgiving morning (again thanks to emails) I decided the email on my phone had to go. Boundaries exists for a reason. Funny how I’ve been sleeping soundly through the night and haven’t had a work related dream since I deleted that account from my phone.
The week following teacher training always proves to be a challenge. I can never get enough rest, Monday I feel like I got hit by a bus either physically or emotionally and on really hard weekends it’s both, by Friday I feel like a hot mess desperately wanting to get some sleep. I’ve tried different tactics to make the week a bit easier but no matter what I do, it never really seems to help. So I’ve finally given in. There’s 3 weekends left and I’ve arranged to have the Monday after the final two training weekends off from work. A day to myself to regroup, sleep in and recover. That means I have one more weekend where I’ll have to tough out a whole week of work. While part of my feels like it’s weakness or giving in, the other part of me is proud of myself for recognizing my limits and establishing some balance. I know in the end I’ll be happy I did.
Sometimes with my new job I work evenings, or Saturdays or even Sundays. I have social commitments of my own during the week and so does Michael. Our schedules are never the same from one week to the next and sometimes they are just plain old unpredictable. Late nights have been occurring a little bit more than I’m used to and it’s not meshing well with my 5am workouts. I’m learning that sometimes the healthiest choice, is setting the alarm a little bit later and getting some extra rest. Sometimes the key to keeping balance is actually a missed workout, some extra snuggle time and enough energy to make it through the day.
With the onset of the holidays and one more thing to balance with an already busy schedule I feel like I’m testing my limits and it’s not always enjoyable. Back in August when we first started teacher training we were asked what we wanted to be free from. I said my Type A ways. I wanted to be comfortable living amongst the chaos, leaving clean laundry in the laundry basket for days and doing what I wanted at the time…not doing what I felt I should be doing. By early November I felt like I had a good handle on this and was calling myself a recovering type A. But life has a funny way of challenging us in an effort to give us what we asked for. I certainly feel like life is challenging me in a million new ways so I can truly conquer my Type A ways. Each and everyday I feel like I’m stopping myself and approaching things differently, reminding myself that not everything needs to be done RIGHT NOW. Responding to emails, sorting the mail, emptying the dishwasher…they all can be done when the time is right. Eating a proper meal, getting plenty of rest and enjoying time with loved ones…these things take precedence and keep life balanced. Just like standing on one leg, keeping life balanced requires concentration and hard work but it feels so good!