Remember when I talked about the transition to the New Year? It turns out that the word transition has followed me into the year of 2014. And it appears, it is going to stick with me. Here’s the thing though, I’m not very good at embracing transitions.
I really like when things are complete. I love crossing items of the to-do list. I love feeling accomplished. Most of all, I love not having to worry about things. Like most of us, I find life overwhelming at times so anytime I can cross something off of my list it makes me feel better. And I like feeling better.
Transitions do not make me feel good. They make me nervous, they cause me to worry, I feel restless and most of the time they make me want to cry. That’s pretty much how I’ve felt for the last few weeks. It’s uncomfortable.
The other day I was trying to sit with my emotions, embracing them and try to let them go. As I was thinking about the future it occurred to me that 2014 is really a year of transitions . Michael and I are engaged and planning our wedding. A HUGE part of me wants to plan the whole wedding RIGHT NOW and become Mrs. Rosa. But that’s not what weddings are supposed to be about. It’s about planning, making decisions together, enjoying the process and becoming husband and wife…a unified team. We are also working on our house right now, painting and making some upgrades. I would really like to stay home from work the next 2 weeks, work incredibly hard, and cross that off our list. Home improvements…complete. But life doesn’t work like that. You have to go to work and you pretty much have weekends to work on your projects. And if you’re really busy you probably can’t dedicate 100% of your weekend to home improvement because you have grocery shopping and social engagements and other things to accomplish. So realistically it means that your project will take a while and you should embrace that your bedroom has no door and just roll with the transition. Beyond the wedding and the house there are a few other transitions happening. And none of these transitions are going to come to an end tomorrow, or next week. That means one thing…I need to embrace transitions.
I think at times the world knows just what we need and helps along in our journey. Over the last few days I’ve seen more messages encouraging me to embrace the transition, to let go of what I cannot control (like time and the future). And you know, as I’ve really tried to make an effort to do so I feel less stressed and more positive. All those feelings that make transitions feel uncomfortable began to subside. It turns out letting go takes effort but feels so good. After all, not every single thing needs to get done right now and not everything needs to be perfect. And as they say all great changes are preceded by chaos. So here’s to embracing the transition and learning to let go…